The most awkward phase of my life would be when my crush asks me Who is your crush? I don’t have the gut or power to tell my love about all my creative thoughts for him. I always want to tell him that he was the guy my heart, even my soul loved. All the tremors that came to me while mistakenly touching him and it was just awesome. A kaleidoscope of butterflies scudded in my belly. I really think I am such a geek what if I propose him. What could be his reply? He always kept me busy compiling my first name with his last name. But finally, one day I took up the courage to propose him. I went to one of my friends to take advice from her about this and mind-blowing without me proposing him (the boy I loved), he got to know about my love for him. And I know that was my “friend” who revealed it. Really no secret stays in her stomach, it needs to be spewed out. And from that day we never talked to each other but yes, my love for him will never die because he was my first one-sided love.